I don’t believe I every really properly introduced myself,
just started talking at you as if you would understand straight from the
beginning. I am writing to you as Greyer
Jane, A Mad Scientist Probability Engineer Conversationalist. I believe in living an experimental experiential
life. Think of it as bizarre art motion study.
I started life off of center, as I expect most occultists and maybe
everyone if we would just admit it starts.
I liked to figure out how to do things, or just absently speculate or
observe or daydream. One of my early
learning treasures was being taught to read by my Nama, before I was old enough
to go to school, reading a Koala book over and over again. My first book that I chose for myself was a
Guide to Birds of North America. I was a
champion daydreamer in class, since I already knew how to read, living my life
in school in my world and in the classroom by protest. I read everything I could find, whether it
was approved of by parental types or not, and found out some mysterious things
really early. I was abetted by helpful Librarians, who in a very real sense
raised me. I had the notion that anything labeled as History was true, and so
became fascinated with the accounts of the Witch trials in Europe,
especially accounts of evidence given. Some
of the first occult books I can remember reading from our Public Library were
Arthur Edward Waite’s “”Book of Black Magic” and “Illustrated Anthology of
Sorcery, Magic, and Alchemy”, by Emile Grillot De Givry. I also discovered The Greek Myths as
recounted by Edith Hamilton about the same time; in particular I was charmed by
the stories of Athena. I lamented that we no longer had equality, Goddesses in
our religion. My own family was very
laissez-faire Christian, mainly going to Church or believing or talking about
religion at all on Holidays. I read and
studied all I could about the Craft of the Witches on my own. This being the 70’s /80’s in Kentucky, it was very
hit or miss in the bookstores. That
taught me discernment among the information I did find. I went away to college, ostensibly to study
History, but really regretting that I couldn’t study Occult. At Westertn’s library, I discovered “Drawing
Down the Moon” by Margot Adler and found that in the modern world there were
actual functioning adults who considered themselves Witches and worshipped
Pagan Gods. It was a revelation to
me. The Advent of Amazon books and the
Internet let me now live in a candy-store worth of information, and has also
brought me the pleasure of the company of other Witches.